Note: This is a post I wrote on an older blog but I wanted to re-feature it here.
I feel like my life is ending.
Okay that’s dramatic. I don’t really feel it’s ending, but I am not going to lie that I have had the hardest time with graduating. This semester has been my favorite semester I’ve ever had. I have gained the best of friends and everything has just come together. I have felt that I have finally been able to be me this semester and I have wanted that for so long.
Because of this, it has been incredibly hard to think about leaving it all behind. I have grown to love Rexburg, Idaho more than any place and I don’t think I could even express how much I have loved this school. Coming to this school was the best decision I’ve ever made. The hardest, yet the best. I have learned more about myself these last four years of college than I have my entire life.
I created this self-portrait because I feel that it is very appropriate with this time in my life. Last Sunday some friends and I went for a drive around Rexburg because the fog was really cool. I of course brought my camera and had this idea and really wanted to create something that was in my head.
With this chapter in my life closing and another one starting, I am having to have a lot of faith and hope in the unknown. I don’t know what is going to happen next. Heck, I don’t even know where I am living yet.
But it’s okay.
At least that is what I keep telling myself. We don’t have to know everything. As Martin Luther King Jr. said:
“Faith is taking the first step even when you don’t see the whole staircase.”
The Lord hasn’t given up on me in the past and won’t in the future. He loves me and knows me and what I need. Things won’t ever be the same as they have been this last semester and that’s hard for me to accept, but I have to realize that other good things can happen that I can’t even imagine right now.
So this has been my thoughts lately. I have really had to exercise faith in my Heavenly Father that things are going to be okay and going to work out. He knows what will make me happy and has a plan for me and I am going to continue to follow that plan and become the person that I know He wants me to become. But first I have to take a step into the fog and that’s what I’m going to do.
Everything else will work out.